This is a glimpse of my last 4 months. It's been a weird season of my life the unknowing and trusting in what God has called me to do but learning that it's all in his timing not mine. I was born with a hole in my heart and up until now I have had no problem but recently I have been getting irregular beats that has put travelling on hold, which has been really hard as I love to TRAVEL. It been a long wait to find out what is causing this and also trusting in when God is going to heal me. But I know in this time He is teaching a lot in this season about trust and timing. I read a passage in the bible that has really spoken to me in this time:
Trust in the Lord and do good.
Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you your heart’s desires.
Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.
He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn,
and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
No matter what you are facing, God is there and He is for you and not against you! Sometimes in the hardest seasons in life He is standing right by your side. To be honest I have to believe and set my mind to yes He will heal me even if its through the cardiologist to figure out what is wrong. Sometimes prayer is answered in different ways and sometimes in the way we least expect it!
You may be reading this and thinking why doesn't God heal straight anyway or is He ever going to heal. To be honest I don't know that answer but I know that He will work all things for the good and He has already be moving in this journey with me. I haven't waited as long as I should of to see a cardiologist and He has shown me to use this season to learn and to trust in Him.
One worship song I love is called "God I look to you" it says in this song:
'Give me vision to see things like you do' I pray that you get vision where you are at, and that you will be able to trust in the journey of where God is taking you.
I will leave you with this, Keep fighting, keep praying and keep trusting!
"Wait patiently for the Lord! Wait confidently for him... "